- I miss you terribly

It was my birthday two days ago. And i really had fun celebrating it with my girls, my families :* I really wanna thank Rosliyana, Nisa and Haziqah for personally coming to my house and watch me sleep.....and also to give me a birthday cake. Sweet girls. Then my family in woodlands for the homecooked mee soup mmmdap, the lolli from Nadhrah, card from Nadia and a pair of earrings from mama & ayah. Oh and a middle finger gesture from my asshotic brother :D I wanna thank my other family for taking me out to dinner near the beach, the awesome icecream cake, the green pendant ( have been wanting this for idk how long!!), and Armani Exchange watch . && not forgetting to those who had wished me through twitter (@ndhrhhh) and facebook (nadhirah fuyoh). I really appreciate it. Oh and also Darwin for the swensen' treat and Nisa for the MacD treat :) My birthday officially end of when RA text me the next day at 645am. You dont know how looooooooooooooooooooooooong ive waited to get th text. And i soooooooo wanna reply you back with sooooooooo many hearts but th fact you're attached, ugh god. I did stopped myself. And im really proud of myself i guess. But i really miss you. Oh my god, i am so sick of me being sick of missing you. Does that make sense? RA, should i wait for you? :/

That aside. Went to AJ Rafael's concert after work today with Nisa. That woman dragged me along eventhough i dont really know this youtuber that well. But hey, i guess im going to start listening to his songs. They're relate-able and he's really soulful. So yeps, thumbs up for AJ! :} AND!!! It was my first time to go home so late hahaha. Went home at 11+ pm. But i am really tired. So glad im not working today(?) its315 am now. I guess i have to sleep soon.

Mmmmmmffffffffffff!!! I just had to look at RA's profile for like the GAZILLION times since 2012. Just. Stop. Me.
I hate how i cant move on.
HATE IT SO MUCH ITS REALLY KILLING ME IM NOT EVEN KIDDING UGH WHY DID I GO TO HIS PROFILE AGAIN??? MMMMM YA CUZ I WANT TO DIEEEEEEEEEE.

"Happy valentines day baby♥ I miss you." Do you remember this? I miss you RA. I really do, i cant even explain how im feeling right now. I know i havent been the best but you're so perfect that i'm not deserving of you but i'm still hoping. I'm just crushed when i got to know you're attached when i already told you to wait till i end my O's. Gosh RA, i really miss you. :( Just tell me if i shouldnt hold on. Cuz....i really dont know. &; dont tell me there are other people out there. There's noone as compared to you.I need you.